Battlefield on my bed

I've gotta admit that i'm a real mess this weekend. Couldn't apply for leave from work to concentrate on jlpt. And now that all hopes seem lost, i'm feeling half-hearted to want to continue with studies. Wonder why i get myself into such a mess every year, regretting that i didn't study harder before this etc. We just don't learn from the past, do we? Oh well, enough said. The old soldier's gotta head back to the battlefield on her bed. -_-"